Friday, March 11, 2005
sometimes i wonder why e bad stuff never stops coming.. n it's getting worse each day.. perhaps it's just my life, perhaps it's just me. I dunno.. but im sick n tired of feeling so crappy time n again.. once in awhile something happens.. then i get all moody.. then i run away from it. then ill be happier..then sth else will happen n ill be crushed all over again.. alot of pple have told me to not bother abt this.. but i cant.. i cant do it.. not when things r getting worse everyday..
just found out sth two days ago.. it made me give up totally. esp after i realised tt e person whom i've trusted so much in has betrayed all of us. it's like my pillar of support crashing down. n for e first time, Im totally helpless n am too afraid to confront it to e extent that i have given up.. completely. I'm afraid of the consequences. I'm afraid of what i'll have to hear. I'm afraid of being hurt so badly tt i wun be able pull myself together again. n i hate feeling lonely. i hate being so affected n i hate being in this alone.
to all my friends.. im sorry for being so unfair to all of u. im sorry for my lousy attitude n for making u guys put up with my bitterness. I'm sorry if i snap at u suddenly, cuz i really din mean to do it. n im sorry for making all of u so worried.
to u.. thanks for making me smile. =)
SHUts at 09:56