Friday, December 24, 2004
firstly.. wanna say a huge Merry Xmas to everyone..(in case if i dun come online tmr).. yeah n just wanna let all mua old frenz know that i miss u pple so so much! it's almost a yr since we've got our own sperate ways.. yup.. to mua clique babes.. baos, geks, joannes, leens, su.. n to e rest of sec 4 charity.. also to mua squaddies.. esp weiz ruo n wenz.. n to my sa frenz.. jiahui, vene, stella, yuen mei, shijia, jiexian,.. sa classmates, odac mates.. n of course to my lovely class at vj now (04s25)..anu, esta, oddz, mandy, yafen, ser, shawn, thong, dick, eetse, shiyun, abz, mannda.. n to e rest of my frenz fr st nicks, vj n other schs.. I love u all so much.. yup all e best for everything in e upcoming year.
hmm.. kkies was just thinking about everything that's happening n e thing that made me write that blog entry yesterday.. yup it's almost a day since e truth dawned on me alr.. n i've spent way too much time worrying about it because i realised that there's basically really nothing much i can do.. although i cannot deny that i'll think about it.. no matter how many pple tell me not to.. it's hard not to be bothered. but then again this has made me realise that nothing around u really belongs to u. eventually, one day, u'll lose it altogether. i didn't actually care when things were normal.. i took everything for granted. now all i can do is look upon those memories and sigh upon them. everything seems to have been snatched away from me in a flash. it'll never be the same again. the trust is now broken. sometimes i really wonder why it had to be me, why it had to be so unfair. I really wanna run away. yet i have to face up to reality. how long more will everything be kept from me? m i too weak to handle it? is that what u believe? i dunno n im not really suppose to anw isnt it.. wth.
Anw, thanks to all those who believe in me. i'll stand up again. i promise. i just need a little bit more time.
SHUts at 14:33