Wednesday, March 23, 2005
after disappearing for so long he's finally back. oddly, i dun feel happy or relieved. instead, i feel damn irritated. im so used to life without him, he now seems so out of place. i know i shuddin be saying this after all the years he devoted, but him coming back is not good. because it would mean that peace will once again be disrupted. not that ive had peace when he's gone.. but at least all e quarreling wasnt over anything that serious. it seems like when he comes all e problems come. i dunno..giving up, (which i have already done so) is one thing. how i get out of this is another thing. i feel so messed up. it all seems so pointless. e moment he stepped in everything turns sour. everything is so pointless now.
SHUts at 13:12