Thursday, July 07, 2005
u know what it feels like to wanna cut urself all over again? just when i thought ive grown out of such foolishness.. e urge to inflict pain on myself just came back.. since im so useless and i'm not worthy of anything at all.. e second best way to punish myself is to let myself bleed till i dry. i wanna cut but i cant find a sharp enuf blade. i wanna sink but i cant find anywhere deep enuf to disappear. when e troubles ended, i really thought it was e end of it all. n i thought i was free. but i guess i was so wrong. i picked myself up when i fell once. but ive fallen again n im not sure if i can stand up one more time. If i could just have just one wish, id wish that e world hasnt brought in such a redundant person like me. the pain of having to face the world is sth im too weak for. i have nth more to say.
SHUts at 22:26