Thursday, December 29, 2005
okay i know i've been absent from my blog for a long time. but each time i wanna blog, ill have so many stuff in my head to write about i'll just get sian and give up. but okay since abz spent so much effort in designing my blogskin.. i shall do justice to it by putting up a post. haha..
anws my life's pretty eventful. a bit too eventful at certain points i must say. and i'm sure some of you know what i'm talking about. but at this certain point i've come to realise that alot of things are superficial in the sense that, i don't understand why so many things are happening. so they say all things happen for a reason. why don't i see any reasons in anything. I'm not a realistic person. so when i say i cant see reasons, i don't mean reasons laid out one by one for me to see. u know what i mean.
then i come to question why my questions in life aren't answered. and then sometimes you realise that they'll never be answered. and then you find yourself aimless in what you're doing. then you come to a point where you realise that you're more alone than you realise you are in this world. everyone stands alone in their own life. the people you trust could possibly be the very first to betray you. then when you turn to some others, you realise that they too lead their own lives and the last thing they want is to be bothered by with your own problems.
so anws, the next thing is, have you ever wondered how certain things seems to be so closely connected? like, how so many people know each other, a certain thing can be blown up so huge it becomes totally complicated? but oh wells. i think i'm complaining too much. and perhaps i question too much. let's just get back into our little comfy zone and stop asking so many questions.
but anw, despite all my complains, something good is happening. and i'm quite happy about it. =)
SHUts at 20:16