Saturday, January 22, 2005
damn.. im in a super shit mood again.. really really think there's sth wrong with me.. n i thought that i've come to terms with everything.. sudd i dun wanna move on. sudd i dun want to carry on.. they say that i should stand up and be strong. they say that i should accept it all.. i'm starting to doubt my ability to be strong.. cuz it's so frustrating.. everytime i accept sth that is crushing me.. everytime when i believe that i'll be able to defeat it, sth else comes in.. n pushes me off all over again..i'm losing balance n if i trip n fall.. it's gonna take me tons of courage to stand up agn. n im tired.. i really am tired of everything. i hate being so unstable. i hate being uncertain. i hate being broken. most of all i hate being kept from e truth. i feel like crap now. n it's not gonna help when im gonna start off monday entering e class with everyone looking at me like im a freak. or a loser whose getting retained. urgh. freak.
thanks
yafen for e note.
oddz for e blog entry.
shawn for being there 24/7 n all e talks n advice.
esther for e long convos on e phone.
anusha for making me scream when u scream.
xh for being e class fountain.
anna for making me laugh with ur laughter.
dick for always being there n for being so protective.
thong for all e well wishes n handshakes.
eetse for being so sweet n nice.
mandy for helping me look into things maturely.
abz for e encouraging smses.
manda for e talks in e canteen.
shin for helping me avoid toh.
ser for being there.
jess for being bimbotic with me.ahhas..
pau for being so enthu on e class convo online then not turining up for e class outing. ha..
lavi for poking me ( at e wrong places) with e fencing thing. n for losing our locker keys hahas.
daryl for being SO lame.
ys for being class daddy n pw grp leader.
terence for planting towgays with shin n me.
david for spooking me with ur veins.
colin for being friendly.
eeteng for being nice.
N thanks 04s25.. for calling me an ah soh cum bimbo.. hahahas.. but im not one!! im nice sweet n innocent!! hahahhahs..
SHUts at 20:11