Thursday, March 24, 2005
mmm.. i think im out of my mind.. planning to try out sth today.. sth which ive never done before n haf never thought i would ever do.. prob wun haf e guts to do it.. im changing my mind alr.. hahas.. but otherwise today is yet another boring day.. okies slacking at home is good.. esp when my life now only revolves ard sleeping, eating, reading my book and training. hahas.. but if i continue leading such a life i think ill just die of boredom.. im like some ah mah leading life after retirement..haha.. i know u all will be pounding my head after i say this.. but seriously im starting to think mugging is quite enjoyable.. haha.. oh wells..
*i wanna run away from this but i cant. so what i can do is to hide the anguish with humour. and to laugh away the tears. maybe, eventually.. ill find a way to bliss. someday ill know the answers to everything. n i can then finally stop pretending. cuz it hurts like shit to do so. it's like a blade stabbed right into my heart, twisting my insides, n my blood flowing dry. my body is but a shell.. my soul is selfish.*
i hate dilemmas. but for now.. ive taken on a decision.. i think.
SHUts at 12:50